Archive for August, 2014

dust in the wind

Posted: August 21, 2014 in Uncategorized

Everything’s in a state of flux. Permanence has been so elusive as of late. In my case, extra elusive. Lately, I’ve been finding it so easy to let things go. It’s like a switch has been turned off indefinitely and I’m not quite sure yet if that’s a good thing but I’m taking it like it is. I have no real toe-hold on anything or anyone I thought I had a real hold on –

Same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea… Now, don’t hang on, nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky…

When you find yourself enjoying a particular moment and yet knowing deep down that it’ll all be gone once you close your eyes – it’s borderline terrifying. Like jumping out of an aircraft thousands of feet above earth with a pack on your back but not knowing for sure if it’s a chute that’d land you safely or just another monkey. Yet you enjoy it anyway. The dangers lurk, that feeling of loss once the moment has passed that you’ve gotten so familiar with, that inevitable crash after the most glorious momentum high… Yet you enjoy it anyway. I have no idea or maybe could’ve just forgotten that sense of permanence. Maybe I never really had it. Yet it seems that’s all I’ve been really living for. I hold on to dust trying to make it into permanent sand castles yet even a 1-yr old can tell me that that’s just foolish.

Everything’s in a state of flux, yes. But what I’d give just to have something that’d still be there when I open my eyes.