Archive for February, 2012

Water falls.

Posted: February 21, 2012 in Uncategorized

It hurts. Fuckin hurts like a motherckufer. Not that I’d know how that literally feels but it really fuckin hurts. It was never about “having someone.” All my life, I never had problems of being single and alone. I enjoy my own company. But have to admit, it is quite nice… to have someone, or to belong to someone. But it’s not about that. It’s not about losing someone in the romantic sense. It’s really about losing my best friend. My rock. My fuckin wonderwall who kept me steady all this time… It fuckin breaks my heart. And it hurts physically. Like a phantom limb. A pain so great that it echoes on in my subconscious. And I honestly, for the fucked up life of me, do not know where or how to move on from here.

The worst part is… The absolutely worst fuckin part is I CAN’T STOP CRYING. My eyes are already swollen up like melons and I can’t stop. I distract myself from crying, I succeed for about 5 seconds, and then the waterfalls yet again.

It hurts. But I just really wanna stop crying. Then, maybe just maybe, I can start moving on.